Laying the nomad to convention

please



help me



find my



first place to live where i pay the rent.

Finally as of tomorrow night i will be in LA, a permanent resident.

i guess that means i can only eat raw spinach, cocaine, and diet water.

when you wish upon a chemical combustion

some times i think about what a terrible plague the
imagination is.
things like this are created, not that there bad
just that they translate an emotion thats really
at the root of all imaginative opus.

the sediment of "there's a better place"

but really when we listen to that
we just continue to lie to our selves.
which im equally guilty of, but sometimes
feel i have a perspective on the problems it brings

there is what there is, false manipulation
will only cause more desperation.

im sorry you cant be edward scissorhands raphael.

two roads divirge, i take the one less depressing.

gah, stuck in arizona for a few more days, my friend tim
who i am moving to LA with, his car broke down. now
we are waiting to get it back to head through the desert
and not look back.

whatever stay calm, its not like anyone would know
if christopher columbus left 4 days late.

in chicago i ate a hot dog with onions,
saw a grand slam sitting behind 2nd base at a sox's game,
ate deep dish pizza and stayed up to 2 am drinking
scotch with my surrogate grandmother.

speaking of which now you really can go look at
http://yellowtails.livejournal.com/
to see chicago photos

Grand Slammed

chicago was indescribable (so read about it on my
travel pagehttp://yellowtails.livejournal.com/)

these are the fruits of my labor that i drewed on
in the airplane
also on that airplane this guy next to me
was reading "portrait of an artist as a young man"

i was like

"dude, do you that book?"
"its one of my favorites"

he replied

"pffffft, naw dawg i gotta read this shit for school"

i move to LA tomorrow, there will be another lul in post
im sorry

but

"pffffft, naw dawg i gotta read this shit for school"

Mental sucker punches

i recently expressed to a dear hearted and minded person
that i often sit and talk with with people listen to there
"theories" (but more so drunk hypothesis) and the whole
time all i can think as they express there old tired
ideas of repackaged art.

is

"what i know, could destroy you."

when i told her that she eloquently agreed.
and understood.
I trust this because she comes from an even more
clinical lab then I.

richard ramirez liked it.

im moving to La, on the 28th, from 22-27 ill be in chicago (and not updating)

once in La you should help me find a housing and a jobs

Dont believe everything you read.

C. G. Jung said
"its not important what we believe just that we believe."

recently i believe i should join the airforce.

with a belief in a new vedic belief



fly a plan, kill a man, fight for something i don't believe in.
to better understand my belief. whitman did it, so did
hemingway, disney, jarrell, stienbeck, etc.
you know the american minds/authors that worn't crap.

i mean im not quit able to sit on a beach in front of
mount etna with my fellow apprentice nude behind
roman robe debating the arcane ideas of pre-socratic
philosophy letting my locks tangle in the
warm Sicilian breeze.



no my life is much more metaphoric of chthonian zeus
raping his daughter. perceived as animalistic, callus,
and bad-hearted, but workingfor a greater acquisition

so i should take the sky and strike with a vengeance
not because I believe thats the right thing to do.

but because i dont believe in much.